jus came back from the funeral.

finally everything is done and over with but sad to say,i feel nothing.

perhaps i am bad or what,coz i never shed a tear throughout the whole thing.. even when we were to see him for the last time..

seriously,i think those aunties of mine who were crying and screaming loudly were so fake.. even my uncle said so.. it's like they were acting.. and once the session was over,they stopped crying or rather screaming and could even sit down and drink water.. how real can it be? i mean,if you are sad,ur tears will still flow even after the entire thing right and not just when the priest is chanting? and furthermore, with all those loud screamings,yellings and cryings,how the hell would he go in peace?

and it is funny that they screamed "huat" (become richer) when they were supposed to ask him to collect the house that we burnt for him.. what the hell?! they only cared about themselves?

and every funeral would have cost quite a lot right? about 1000+++? and there they were wasting all the resources which we could have saved.. haiz~ and then they wanted to save on things that cannot be saved.. wtf..

dun care anymore.

i am not in the position to care anyway.

just wish that i could disassociate with them as soon as possible.

since they never really care about my father in the first place anyway.