went to the hospital to see my grandfather.

i dont wish to.. i am actually forced to go..

i remembered when i was young,i actually hated him so much that i wish i would never see him again.. that's the truth.. he was too biased against me.. he ignored me when i called him.. and after that i just decided to stop calling him at all since there was no response from,but was scolded by my parents though they were also aware of his fucking attitude.. it was like talking to the wall when i called up to him.. no response nothing..

he used to give me smaller hongbaos as compared to my brother.. how much more obvious can he show his biasness? my mum was angry by this unfairness within us.. though my brother agreed to share the hongbao money with me, mum confronted him and ask him to give the same amount or otherwise dont give at all..

there are a few more incidents that happened and i forgot them already..

perhaps,to him,i may not be the greatest/most obedient/caring granddaughter.. coz i am just a girl.. and he prefers guys..

but to me,he is definitely not my ideal grandfather..

fucking 重男轻女.. idiot..

but seeing him with all the tubes around him is saddening..

however,it irritates me was that he reacted strongly when my dad just touched him.. wth.. it is just an action of care and yet he just moved away with such big action.. his son leh.. his own son touching him,he also doesnt show any appreciation.. i was like wtf..

i have no wish to go see him again..

call me unfilial..

i dont care.