wasnt in a mood to talk and listen much today..

if i seems cold to you,i am cold..

i mean it literally.. no joking.. coz no matter where i study,be it at mac whitesand,eastpoint foodcourt,or eastpoint burger king,i am cold.. really.. the aircon was quite strong.. i was still cold at bk despite xiaojia buying me milo which is burning hot.. and yes,once again,i meant it literally coz i think i burnt my tongue and it is sort of numb now..

perhaps numb is the right word for my feelings now..

numb towards exams..

numb towards how i am going to celebrate my birthday..

i shouldnt have thought of having a chalet in the first place.. i shouldnt have thought of bbQing and catering.. i shouldnt have even wish for anything for my birthday.. i should just be contented if there was a simple gathering/celebration, be contented with what i have..

and now i wont have gone through all these fuss and quarrelings with my parents.. make myself unhappy and stuff like that..

perhaps i shouldnt even be celebrating it..

i dun feel like celebrating anymore.

i am tired.

p/s: saw my students from the student care today.. they cant recognise me anymore.. sobsob.. even their mum cant recognise me.. hai~~ i guess it is because of the change in hairstyle and the glasses.. how different could i be? i wonder.