it's been quite a long time since i last leave my footprints here at this blog..actually i think i already lost the reasons of why i should be continuing blogging here.. i used to think that through blogging i will then be able to remember all the happy moments i had together with my friends.. but recently i had realised that no matter how happy i was with my friends,the experience can never be the same again.. espeicially since when there is certain events that took place..

i remember between C and me, there was this barrier ever since we didnt see eye to eye regarding some small event.. mainly perhaps whoever she treated as her enemy was actually my friend..i dun care what my friend,d had done wrong to her (i doubt there is any.. it is just her being the same as many others who just judge people according to what they hear and see..) so anyway,since we dun really agree with each other's actions,there is no point staying together.. and when we were out once,we quarrelled because we dun meet eye to eye with each other.. although at that time,there were many others who told me that she was actually concerned about me,but i dun really like the reason of her taking things for granted and stuff like that...

then gradually,there is another incident in JC period... whereby we sort of neglect the feeling of that someone,H that she even asked us not to ask her along for any more.. guess it must have been pretty traumatising for her to ask us not to invite her along coz she felt out of place..but we also felt bad.. i mean all of us are friends but why cant we just make everybody feel as comfortable as everybody??

in uni as usual,things like this often happen.. like i mentioned previously (quite some time ago..),i havent been in contact with A anymore,and we have not been going out for outing like singing KTV etc for a long time.. why? i guess it gotta do with me liking him in the past (i must have got over it that i am able to openly talk about it.. haha.. ) and perhaps him liking another person now.. haha.. and gradually,friends like this disappeared from my life..

perhaps in uni people gradually found their cliques and boy/girlfriends etc and start to drift apart.. me and J as well as me and E..we will all start to drift apart.. different friends,different class.. somehow just felt that probably whatever is known as friends are just a tools for use when you are alone..

changes are everywhere.. people changed as the environment around them changed.. however,in many situations,changes are not encouraged.. like 长今 in the hottest korean serials--大长今,she had changed to be more competitive given her change in environment whereby there is competition of food to be served to the emperor.. such a change is not encouraged..

likewise when we are studying,what we are actually competing with is actually ourselves,whether we could cope with the stress that examinations give us,whether we had clearly understood and absorbed all that we had learnt, and whether could meet up with all the expectations we had for ourselves and not what other people expected us to do..and if in any ways,we tried to cheat or do anything funny for the sake of exams.. it will then lose the meaning of havin such a test to be put against us in the first place..

so fret not friends, examinations arent everything.. when we go out to the real world out there,it is hard work and sincerity that counts.. =)

ps.learn this from 大长今.. haha..