felt super lousy today.. i also dunno why.. just on the train then i felt like crying liao.. was messaging emily at that time about certain people.. then suddenly felt very sad.. perhaps also due to the song that i am listening to ba..无尽的思念 by 林俊傑.. haha.. quite sad..

then had corporate finance lecture..wasnt quite clear at one point of time but managed to clarify it later on.. haha.. was pretty confident about it.. and i can even explain it to janice.. just that when she rebutted,i dunno how to reply.. lolz.. perhaps i am not so zai afterall.. =( i thought i know the perhaps i didnt.. haha..

was pretty hyper at some point of time when we were running and playing basketball.. but then after that was a bit giddy perhaps run too much and didnt drink enough water.. and was somehow letting myself falling into the pit.. started to think a lot.. more of 胡思乱想.. thought of what lena told me.. i've changed.. for better or worse? i dunno.. i think it is for worse.. and i felt lousy about it..

and again,i went to run after resting.. just like the feeling of running into the darkness (coz they never switch on the lights for the tracks as there werent much activities there..) however,such running didnt make me feel any better.. but at least it is an escape for me.. at least when i cry,noone will see.. no one will worry.. haha..

after that,talked to emily.. felt slightly better talking to her since the problems doesnt arise from her.. guess sometimes it is just me la.. dunno why somehow when i am with my closer friends i would have problem with them.. perhaps it is a problem of expectation.. they dun meet my high expectation of them neither do i meet their requirement.. sad hor? wad kind of friend am i? expecting so much getting disappointed and yet didnt even meet up with their minimal expectation..i think i super "逊",meaning lousy now.. haha.. really can not make it.. oh shit man.. wad can i do to go back to the old me??

and we went to eat at adams road.. and hehe,emily and i drank beer.. but only 1 bottle so i guess each of us had about 1.5 to 2 cups.. haha.. i think beer is addictive.. haha.. coz somehow i am addicted to it.. lolz..after that we took bus home and i sort of chase chenghe off the bus when the 3 of us were taking.. haha.. i am that bad.. coz he insisted in sendin us home.. but then i got something to say to emily.. haha.. girls talk.. :P