i am sorry.

i think i have scared most of my friends the last week.. due to some unhappiness that i was having..

hmm,coz there is this guy i like,he was attached to another girl.. i guess i need time to forget him ba.. haha.. although before that i already knew that it was impossible between the both of us.. but just cant feel feeling sad and a bit surprised when i know he was attached to another person.. but no worries.. i am sure i am able to get over it soon.. [it is not the first time i am in this situation anyway..haha..] and no i wont avoid him.. we will still be friends.. perhaps things wont be the same as before.. but we will still keep in contact nevertheless..

anyway,after this incident,i realised that there are much more people who are concerned about me other than the tar-los who have always been supportive of me.. thank you guys.. =)

i am really grateful to lena and janice who had been listening to me when i was down.. especially janice since i meet her almost everyday.. haha.. she even accompanied me to suntec area where i meet my tar-los friends for fear that i will 胡思乱想 on the bus.. haha.. and she encouraged me alot.. though i am still persistent that i am not 美女.. she is.. and i think i am in fact fugly (freaking ugly).. lol..

and lena,thank you for accompanying me and trying to cheer me up.. i know i may not seem very appreciative to you.. and perhaps you might even feel that i sort of "took you for granted".. haha.. but remember you are always the first person i think of in times of trouble and joy.. so you should be "glad" and "honored" that i actually shared with you.. haha.. most of my secrets or at least the things that happened to me,you more or less know.. haha.. which means i am in a very dangerous situation.. lolz..

hmm.. and also to my tar-los friends.. they have always been supportive of me.. and waiyue had been sick and tired of reminding me to be more confident of myself.. haha.. well,since young i have not been confident of myself.. so i guess it is inborn??!! haha.. perhaps i should do something to make myself more confident.. contact lenses? so i wont be hiding behind those glasses.. haha.. hmm..what a great idea.. but.. where do i get those? and where do i get the money to buy??!!

haha.. i sound like i am going for a "make-over" session.. and i knew i had spent a lot this year.. much much more than last year.. be it on clothes,on shoes or any other things..

and i spent over 100 today!!! shopping spree..and i still owe alot of people money.. huixin and kaijing.. i owe huixin 15 for the lingerie we bought and kaijing $3.50 for the lunch.. haha.. i bought shoes,develop photos,earrings,go kbox.. and i still itching to get the shoes from charles and keith.. lol.. and i need a photo album.. this is destructive.. i am not going out to shop next week.. cannot make it le.. haha

hmm.. by the way,met him and his girlfriend today at fareast.. quite surprised.. coz i was mentioning to lena that i think we will meet him.. lolz.. and we did.. and like lena said we just said hi and then bye.. haha.. coz i was busy looking for earrings.. haha... anyway,see him like so happy i should also give them my blessings.. haha..

like wad my friends told me.. i would find another one who is more suitable and better guy.. muahaha.. since when am i so positive? haha.. but i am sure i will..

some day i will..

ps. thanks to all who had showered your concern to me.. thanks alot.. appreciate it loads..=)