went to study at bedok.. together with janice,xiaojia,alan [he came all the way from bukit batok..surprise??] and also lena and jac.. hmm,wonder why jac ask lena to study? i dunnoe.. you go and ask him la!! haha.. weird thing is that he never ask waiyue.. why??!! haha.. =X

anyway,nothing much to say also.. wasnt in my best of mood.. but since when was i in my best of mood recently? hai~ just super affected by the tuition kid.. just wished that the mum had not ask me to teach him so many of the other subjects as well.. i just wanna concentrate on maths,his weakest subject.. he now does not have the motivation to learn something that is difficult--part whole model in maths..

i saw myself in him.. i refuse to motivate myself to achieve something which i can do better in... i am stubborn.. he is as well.. and it makes me frustrated easily when he didnt pay attention.. plus he is stubborn.. that is what makes me angry.. plus i wasnt in my good mood recently i am starting to find teaching a chore plus all the counting down to exams and all the friendship stuff bothering me [well,i guess i self-created these problems..]

i am tired..

just wanna die if i can,peacefully..

sometimes i wanted to find someone to talk to.. but all seems so busy at this moment of time..coz due to the exams period.. and when there is someone there for me to pour out all my troubles which i mainly self-created for myself [i probably deserve it anyway for creating problems to myself],i dun feel like talking about it.. i am a weird person aint i?

sat with lena they all at burger king.. jan they all sat another table while i sat with lena and jac.. abit weird.. jan they all are talking and writing something.. well,they dun let me know.. so i guess it wasnt meant for me to see.. and that makes me sad.. how can they hide things from me? i felt outcasted.. and i dun like it.. but since they dun wanna tell me,there is nothing i can do also.. if they wanna tell me,jan will call me to say one..or maybe coz i concentratin in listenin to the songs that was playing in my mp3..or perhaps i just dun look too happy when they bother me.. i dunnoe..

they said i act weird today.. i guess so in some ways.. my behaviour changes quite a lot.. due to different thinkin at different timings.. due to different happenings around me ba..i dunnoe..i just felt weird.. like i am going through some puberty or what.. and i dun like it..

changes are things i hate.. and yet changes is the only thing that never change..

i dun like it..

i dun..

anyway,studying wasnt fun.. since when is studying fun? but at least i managed to complete my chapter 9 for POB.. bank regulation.. hmm,so not so bad ba.. at least managed to get something into my mind.. thanks to the motivation of playing pool after studying.. hehe.. proudly suggested by jac..

then went to play pool.. pretty ex.. haha.. but never mind.. i enjoyed it anyway.. then also went to eat dinner.. hmm.. ate fish beehoon.. not very nice.. no milk i guess... that's why.. and also shared the yam paste with lena.. super not nice!!!! sux.. and it is so expensive due to the bai guo.. which i didnt eat.. luckily lena eat.. haha..

took 28 home.. haha.. disturbed jac on the way.. :P hehe.. then xiaojia asked me a weird qns.. what question? nah,not going to tell u since it is a weird question.. and what is my answer to her question? well,i guess it is for me to know and for you to find out ba.. haha..=P