went to school for mr ting's econs lessons.. was there pretty late but luckily sinlay was there to help us book seats..a lot of familiar faces.. namely jonathan's friends.. haha..he went through all the leisure questions,so perhaps there is a high possibility that it might come out for the exams...after that,we had lunch at megabites.. then jon suggested his house and so we went to his house to study since there wasnt any seats/benches in the school..

and so we shared cabs to jon's house.. haha.. but i think we werent too sure where and the cab driver as well wasnt sure about the place as well and so we went round in circles.. even alan who meet us there via bus was faster than us!!! hmm,wonder why alan join us? i also wonder.. dunnoe why also..

went to the study room there to study.. there were children having all different kinds of tuition there and i guess we sort of disturbed them ba.. haha.. then kenneth,yusheng and meng went to swim at the swimming pool there.. i made a phone call to lena under the sun,coz i wasnt feeling very good.. dunnoe why but somehow,it made me feel better after talking to her..perhaps she could understand what i am feeling.. somehow or rather..

perhaps wad made me sad was just a inside thing.. my perception,my ideology etc..me unable to meet up with my own expectations etc..the comparing with other people and my low self-confidence.. i just made myself sad.. somehow,it was difficult to get out of this deep deep hole down dug by my brain.. it's sort of within me.. my mentality and my attitude to things.. although i knew deep inside my heart that i shouldnt be feeling this way,there are always people who are concerned about me,worried for me.. and partly it was my fault for making them feel this way.. sometimes,i felt i should just disappear from their lives and perhaps they would feel much better.. but things arent going to be the same again..rite? that was wad lena told me.. it is definitely not a good idea if i start to drift apart from them,especially since i cant bear to as well.. haha..all these things are driving me crazy..

anyway,back to what happened,i wanted to eat chocolates but i couldnt find the vending machines.. and so alan brought me to the vending machine which was in front of the squash court.. haha.. then he accidentally sprained his leg while coming down the stairs.. opps.. i guess i am the one who brought it to him ba.. haha.. since i was the one who wanted to eat chocolates and needed him to bring me to the vending machine and yet i didnt get anything i wanted because it is not the type of chocolates that i wanted.. :(

then went back to the study room to start studying my econs.. was feeling pretty weird because halfway through,janice headed to the playground to study coz she felt that the room was too enclosed for her..i dunnoe,but somehow just felt weird sitting with xiaojia and weilun on the table.. then people walked in and out..gradually people just disappeared at times..to either get something to eat or swimming or just needed a breathing space.. haha..

then alan wanted to go out and buy mac donald's..then xiaojia and weilun asked me to go with him.. haha.. weird.. haha.. how do they know it?? haha.. wasnt in the mood to study at all.. but didnt go with him as well.. haha.. wont it be weird if i go with him? haha.. that was my mentality.. though i very much wanted to.. haha.. and because of my certain thinking,i dun dare to do.. perhaps i just mind what other people are think and say... 人言可畏... haha..

then janice went to one of the pool there to take picture.. but since i was wearing jeans and my leg had an open wound on the sole,i didnt join them in the pool.. we just took pictures.. a nice environment

here are some of the pictures we took..


xiaojia and janice in the pool there..


me,alan,meng and xiaojia


this are us at jon's house..
1st row:janice,xiaojia,me
2nd row:kenneth,yu sheng,weilun
3rd row:alan,meng,jon

then after that janice had to go off for a bbQ session.. and so i accompanied her out since i wasnt in the mood to study anyway.. haha.. then i told her some of my problems and my thoughts about solving this problem.. after that i felt better as well.. like lena,she too have the amazing power to make me feel better after telling her my problems and somehow,can feel that she could relate to me.. but there are times when i felt that i would be bothering her as she herself was facing some problems as well.. relationship problems are problems that was hard to solve..

as i headed back,i studied a while then thought that it was time for me to go home as i am havin dinner at home.. felt a bit bad to leave xiaojia there alone but since she had the mood to study,i shouldnt have forced her to go home with me or wad.. and so i went off alone.. on the way home, i had this thought that they would be more relaxed if i wasnt there ba.. anyway,i wasnt close to them in the first place.. already felt weird going there..

and true enough,alan told me that they had fun after i went off.. perhaps it wasnt a bad idea that i left early.. then alan scolded me.. haha.. why do i always have such a thought? why am i so negative? he just wanted to tell me that i miss the fun.. and that it was hard to have fun if there was one person sulkin (that's me,in case you guys dunnoe) and hence in conclusion,i still believed that my early departure brings them fun and joy..

perhaps i should not be involved in the 1st place..