i used to have this childhood dream.. well,i am sure when we were young,we are bound to have childhood dreams like becoming a teacher, becoming an air-stewardess, becoming a lawyer, becoming a doctor etc..

for me, i thought i would like to be a dj yes,those hosts on the radio.. i had always thought that it would be nice to interact with the listeners and play music they wanted to listen to.. and reading out all those sweet sweet songs dedication.. and somemore i wont have to face anyone.. it will curbed my stage-fright and if i am very ugly,i dun have to worry about the listeners being turned off by my looks.. isnt it a fulfilling job which satisfy all my requirements??

*note:those are my childhood thinking.. okie,probably except the being ugly part

then as i grew older,i forgot all about my childhood ambition..

until a few weeks ago,when there was this air-stewardess recruitment schedule.. janice and lena was enthusiasically discussing and telling me about their childhood ambition of becoming an air-stewardess.. and reading julia's blog about her search for air-stewardess jobs etc.. [i assume she also had this childhood ambition of wanting to be an air-stewardess] and siowboon's tag at lena's blog that she was going to look for air-stewardess jobs once she graduated from SMU..

how about me?

am i going to achieve my childhood dream?

but the thing now is will i? am i able to? determined to?

to become a DJ,i would at least need a diploma in mass communication if i am not wrong.. and i was in JC.. other than that there are all those competitions whereby they look for voices to be the next DJ,will i be able to? am i able to curb my stage-fright and speak in front of so many people alone? is my voice unique enough? how about my power of language? is it strong enough? am i good at talking in the first place? am i able to relate to them?

how can i be a DJ when i have none of the above mentioned?

i lost my childhood dreams.. and perhaps it is time for me to wake up from my dreams..

to all who are able to achieve and reach for your goals,please jia you!! i will be happy for you when you reached it.. and do remember to share the joy with me when you reach your goals,be it childhood goals or aims you had made for yourself recently..

and for now,a positive me had found a new goal-- to graduate in SIM at the end of the 3 years with at least a second class honours ba.. haha.. [what a joke!!] i shall now go and drown myself in the sea of books.. till then,take care~