what exactly is inner beauty?
the thing about inner beauty is not visible (hence inner) and it is not easily discovered.. haha.. so how to judge a person by inner beauty? how you know if that person has inner beauty when you dun even noe him or her? furthermore, what is the definition of inner beauty? character? being strong? confidence? kindness? courage? caringness? charity? helpfulness? persistence? what exactly is it? all of the above? or none of the above? i am confused by the term inner beauty.. how to judge? perhaps when you are being persistent, people may find you stubborn.. when you are kind and helpful to someone, others may find you kay-po (busybody) etc.. or worst still,they think that you are more a burdence than help... so what exactly is inner beauty? and who says inner beauty doesn't change? when you meet something that totally change your perception, your inner beauty change.. for example, when you faced something that totally destroyed your life, then you find that life is no longer as meaningful anymore, no point having those inner beauty.. haha.. my perception,i maybe wrong.. haha... so do forgive me if i have the wrong perception of inner beauty.. i need someone to enlighten me...

lena.
had a telephone chat last night with lena.. was shocked when i got her message about going out together.. hmm, why am i surprised?? i guess it gotta do with our common trend of going out in a big group, the taR-Los and not just ask me alone ba.. i thought she had some problems in school or exams or what.. was pretty worried about her, then call her home she was not at home.. didn't call her hp coz i think she didn't have any free incoming.. haha.. so messaged her.. then she was talking to diana.. a bit weird hor?? haha.. anyway, she called me at around 12 midnight.. haha.. nothing was wrong la.. just that she miss me too much.. haha.. no la,she just wanted to chat and we made a date on saturday to go out and study.. haha.. i bo pian, all my tests coming soon le.. so we go airport,kk?? hehe.. then we go there study.. can go to the popeye there to eat, seems like the food there pretty nice.. but quite ex as well around 6 bucks, so lena,on aR? you read your magazines, i study my POB.. haha.. see i so hardworking.. wahaha..

anyway, this girl ar, aiyoh, so sensitive one.. haha.. in my last entry,i mentioned about going to the airport to study.. but i didn't mention about her joining us in sakae sushi after her exams.. then she became so paranoid (this is so similiar to me..haha..) and asked me if i hated her.. haha.. of course not la.. then she mentioned about my previous entry on the 26th oct about the childhood one.. she asked me i dun have good friends meh?then what is she to me.. haha...

got this from diana's website.. quite true at some parts, quite fake at some parts.. wahaha.. erm, i think the only true part is that i have imaginary friends.. cool huh? i guess i dun reallie have a great childhood.. but nothing that bad either.. neither here or there.. have the stuck in between that kind of feeling.. no good friends, nor best friends.. just a mixture of friends.. the person whom i treated as my best friend didn't actually treated me the same.. and that left me a scar.. i will never forget the times she betrayed me.. ok,not really betray la.. but just the sabo part.. *shivers* since then, i hate being saboed.. i mean it is ok to be sabo for like fun, but letting me carrying the black pot (erm,translate to chinese.. ) i hate it.. and it is not only once.. it is more than once.. ok, i had enough.. hai~ the past.. i guess everyone had a past.. but i noe that mine is not a reallie good one for me to think back of.. especially in my primary school days.. almost horrendous.. lots of competitions and stuff.. *stressed

friends.
i guess after reading this entry, alot of people asked me, you dun have good friends meh? then lena,waiyue,guirong,diana they all are what? huixin and kaijing leh? how about eileen,joanna,simin they all leh?then still got xiaojia and janice leh? actually i also long forgot the meaning of close friends, good friends and best friends.. what is the difference? is close friends one who is always close to your heart? one who can keep secret for you no matter what? how about best friends? are they able to read minds and understand what you are thinking?

hmm, i believed that at different stage we will meet different kind of friends.. this kind of thing is hard to say.. sometimes, there are some people, i dun tell them my feelings about guys one... some i can share a great deal about what kind of guys i like.. some i can chat like siao.. haha.. non-stop one.. for more than an hour or so.. some i can only talk to them online, mainly because we seldom hang out.. there are some even weird one only on msn we can chat like siao, when we meet each others, we are speechless.. weird huh? then there are some online we dun chat, we chat like mad when we see each other.. some even weirder, only chat on sms.. haha.. weird huh? weird.. and there are some worst one.. dun keep in contact at all.. but when meet each other, can talk as if we meet each other everyday.. haha.. funny loh.. hmm, still got some even more funny,just know only then we like become super shou.. haha..

i guess sometimes time is not the measurement of friendship.. right? it got something to do with the feelings and perhaps the kind of encounters you guys meet together.. that will create a common topic to chat about.. and perhaps.. that will lead us to become closer friends.. sometimes after a quarrel or disagreement, we are able to cherish each other better.. perhaps.. guess it got to do with some fate huh? without fate we might just pass by each others like many other strangers and not know each other.. i believe in fate.. i believe in miracle (though i have never seen it happened right in front of me..

Basketball.
aiyah, next week onwards, basketball will be training already,perhaps guided by our president,valentino.. we are going to compete i guess.. haha.. i am not sure about the details yet.. but it is going to be a 5 vs 5 kind of thing.. no replacement,nothing.. haha.. and i cant even get in a free throw.. :( no strength to get in.. see how lousy i am.. haha.. at least i have the interest.. :P hehe.. anyway, i had the interest because of someone, that is true.. but gradually i realised that i actually like it more after reading slamdunk... i even influenced my brother also get addicted to playing basketball.. hehe.. and he is even a better player than me.. expected la.. guys mah.. if they are reallie keen on certain things, they will most certainly do well for it.. wonder why..perhaps when they are reallie keen they put their heart into it..

Online Games.
been addicted to too many online games lately.. starting to behave more like a guy rather than a girl.. i am more interested in games and more games rather than those girl girl things like knitting? eh, then i think i also more tomboyish since young.. haha.. i dun like hop-scotch,neither do i like zero point.. preferred one-leg.. and catchin.. haha.. weird huh? hmm, so now let me intro you guys so fun games.. haha.. :P online one,some might required so downloads.. click the links to go see see and play.. hehe..

runescape :an online role playing game quite fun.. no need to download much things.. hehe.. in fact no need to download anything.. gotta do quests and stuff..fighting etc.. quite fun on the whole.. also learn different skills such as mining and cooking.. cool rite?

maplestory :another online role playing game.. if you like mario, then you will like this graphics and game.. hehe.. but i dun quite like it.. but anyway,it is very ke ai.. cute ne.. kawaii.. need to download the program..

kalonline:this is the game i am very addicted to now.. it is some sort similiar to diablo, whereby you choose to be either a knight, magician or shooter to play the game.. then you can fight to earn things to sell and complete quests..

raycrash :this game is the game that made my brother pretty addicted during his exams period.. haha.. this is about you controlling a machine to fight.. pretty meaningless to me.. coz i am a slow coach and hence often lost.. no quest,nothing.. just the fun and thrill of getting hit and hitting others..

gunbound :this is one of the game that i know many people are playing.. at least those i know.. haha.. and also one of the game many wondered what is so fun about it.. i guess the thrill is when you hit another person using some sort of stunts and stupid ways.. hehe.. i guess that's the thrill of gunbound.. haha.. seldom play anymore.. wahaha..

tada~these are some of the games that i found interesting.. go try them and get addicted!! :P hehe... better do it after your exams..hehe