yup,it's been quite some time since i last blogged..hmm,although i have been like online everyday..haha..and what am i doin online when i was supposed to be studying for my POB test...hmm,haha..i was addicted to internet i guess..was curious about what happened in shuhui's life,so went to read her blog was looking for someone to chat with so went to msn..was bored of studying..so went to play gunbound..haha...life is that interesting huh??hehe..but anyway,i didn't stay online for long each time..i think me goin online had become a habit,an addiction...hm..sounds pretty bad huh??haha..yah,quite bad..giving excuses for not studying,when all the people around me are goin to have their exams and tests and stuff..wahaha..i am slacking..;p

boyfriend.
wonder when i will find the special one..haha..hmm,yesterday tok to one of my friend,Benedict in IR..haha..he got girlfriend le wor..from NIE,yesh shuhui,i think she is your senior but she takes home economics in TP..eh,anyway,he asked me and sharon if we had any boyfriends that kind of thing la..haha..wad can i say??just shut up and listen to them loh..haha..and sharon is going to register in the ROM next year,she is just one year older than me and she is getting married...oh my god..and i haven't even found one yet..

sometimes i wonder if there were anything wrong with me?? why can't i just attract the right guys??haha..okok..this is getting a bit out of hand..hmm,oh yah,when i was online,farhan also asked me if i had a boyfriend..i was like no,is there a problem???haha..yeah,sometimes i do think that i have a problem..haha..but can't help it right?i mean what can u do?no choice loh,just gotta listen to your friends tok abt their bf/gf..i mean what can you do rite??go out to a guy and say hey i wanna be your gf??siao..haha

sharon and diana had told me that perhaps my fate with him had not come..hmm,when will it come??when i am 50??haha..then i will be an old virgin(go translate to chinese) haha..then sharon told me that this sort of thing comes at the most unexpected time..quite true i guess,at least to all my friends who had bf..i think it is true..hmm,i believe them..and i can only just hope for the best and try hard not to think about it ba..haha...wad else can i do??haha..i am sure many of my friends also feeling the same as me now..no choice..at least i think you guys are great,just as GREAT and perhaps even better..haha..no distress,no worries about wat to get for monthiversary etc..haha..so envious and yet so relieved at the same time..mixed feeling..haha,perhaps now i am wishing for it..and when it come,i might not at all be so happy about it..haha

hmm,perhaps i am having a rather naive view of being together with a boyfriend..i have the perception of a happily ever after kind of story..haha..naive??yeah,i suppose i am..but well,that was before i knew the terrors of being with a boyfriend...after hearing complains and greivances from my friends with boyfriends,i realised fortunate i was as well as how unfortunate i was..haha..ironic??yeah,the fortunate part was that i dun have to worry about another person's feeling,actions and speech etc..since i am such a sensitive person,at least i won't get hurt so easily.. unfortunate coz i had noone who care for me..haha..no la..erm...coz dun have those super duper sweet moves and times..haha..i mean it is different when a couple goes out rite??compared to mayb a couple of girls??haha..yah,the romanticness etc...hai~~!

mixed feelings...weird feelings..

being a ger.
diana asked us on her blog about being a ger..how to be a ger??hmm,do i behave like a ger should??nah,i dun think so la..i dun like pink for one,i like blue in fact which is considered to be a boy color(such sterotype) and i definitely dun enjoy wearing a dress..yesh,i only wore a few times..perhaps when i am young and vain...haha...but now i like demin skirt..hehe..erm...wad else about being a ger??hmm,patience is definitely what a ger should have more than a guy..haha..and sad to say i dun have it..i am rather impatient as seen above..haha..i am impatient to wait for the guy to appear..or rather,i have decided not to wait..if i can survive alone,with friends and family for the past few years,why can't i continue the way i am??(easy to say,hard to do..hai~!) anyway,yah,so erm,am i consider a ger??just because of what i look and what my body is like???!!!haha...you are kiddin me rite??but sad to say,it's the truth we are gers coz we are not boys...coz we don't have some of the things they have..and we have some of the things they dun...so...haha...even if i dun behave like a ger sometimes,i am still a ger..haha..coz i am a ger...haha...no choice..

so,diana have i answered your question??u are a ger no matter what..you are a ger...yesh,trying to hypnotise you...wahaha...yesh,you are born a ger no matter what character you have,how you behave etc...and by the way,there are times when you are more of a ger than me..you noe what i mean..haha..my aunt haven't been visitin me for long..perhaps i have not been a ger,a good ger afterall..haha