went to school today..was late..rushed to the front to grab a place which can accomodate all 3 of us,jan,xj and me..but in the end,they sat behind..coz they couldn't find me..understandable??yep,i can understand..then we sat together after break..which i felt was like no point loh..anyway,i felt that i dun reallie clique with them la..coz wadeva they said i dunnoe and hence most of the time will be in a daze...haha..especially when there is only 3 of us..i hate ODD numbers..since primary school,i have a phobia of odd number..dunnoe why..prefer even number..2..haha..yeah!!a pair..haha..twins..haha..*thinking run wild* anyway,went home alone..took 154 switch to 8..haha..hmm,not a very short journey but not long also..just 1hr 20 min..i reached home le...

hmm,had a pretty nice chat with qimin and may just now..was again reminded of the past..seems like the past is wad we are made up of today...friends in our life are just as important i suppose..it is the moment and times we are hanging out together that makes my life as it is now..perhaps part of it lies in the hand of mine,perhaps it is fate..no matter wad,we should treasure life as it is ba..though i gotta admit,it sux..it is boring..haha..:P

the past.02A06.
remembered the time we first started school..haha..qimin was the only hyper one wearing TKSS school uniform going around self-introducing herself..haha..me and kaijing sat in the back row,at one corner beside donald and the rest of the guys..haha..trying to act in non-existance..haha..yeah,and the both of us always sit with them be it in lecture or tutorials..haha..coz we noe donald mah..haha..

hmm,so hence we voted qimin for the class rep..haha..everyone noes her..haha..forever so cheerful..haha..then i forgot how yueze became the pastoral care rep..haha..then hmm,treasurer is cheryl..haha..got the trustworthy face..haha..:P eh,then donald is the public affairs one i think..but up till now, we dun even have an outing..haha..and me and kaijing have been pestering him and yueze for a very long time..haha...but to no avail la..sad..haha..so..it's been very long since i last met them..haha.....also remember the times we pon SPE..all of us,gers..while the guys came back from SPE,come and scare us say wad mrs barnavas looking for us..haha..then sometimes i pon econs to go and play bball..haha..with the A08 people..those were the days...haha....

i remembered when i entered 02S13,on my letters to eileen are all about A06,how great it was..how united we have been..etc..but thinking back..we are reallie not as united..in fact we are so dispersed..take me for example,always playing bball with the seniors and A08,returning to class a a red tomato..haha..or else,i would be sitting with my sec sch friends,shuhui,waiyue,siuling and of course kaijing..chatting about him..haha..diao rite??then they will try to pass message around..haha...those were the days...

thinking back,why am i always thinking back??i have no idea..perhaps you can call me a person who have no future..as i am always thinking back and not looking forward..of course there are times i do look forward to things..but somehow,not as enthusiatic about it anymore...the money factor,the people's responses and many other factors which in one way or another influenced my mind of thoughts...

easily influenced.fickle-minded.sensitive.that's me. i can't help it..and i can't change coz it is just me..if i change it is not me anymore and why change into a person who isn't me??why????