was mad at one of my student today..didn't want to talk to him actually,but no choice,i got to face him..tried very hard to ignore all he is trying to do..he is trying to spite me..so i ignored him..dun care about him..i let him do whatever he wants..i heck-care..reallie give up on him..talked to him before but he treated me so rudely..i dun care..

another problematic child who likes to play with his scissors and put wooden ruler into his mouth..haiz..asked him not to and he still insisted..should have confiscated it sia..regretted not to..haiz..anyway,dun reallie adore this child..he has a reallie bad-tempered..and he was not like this in the past..very easily agaitated..guess environment does make a lot of difference..

a lot of students have changed..none are almost the same as they were in the first few months..haiz..and to think that they have changed for worse..must be the bad company in the centre..i regretted saying this but i think it is reallie true..the making fun of each other..hitting of each other..discrimination of people etc..haiz..

anyway,i will not be working there by the end of july..by august..dun expect them to miss me..i have been rather hard on them recently..i guess..realise that they faced problems that i never faced when i was in primary school..everything has been too smoothly for me in my primary school and i didn't learn..in fact i dun even remember any difficulties i faced in my primary school except maybe i hate chinese writing and english cloze passages..haiz..i will never understand the reason why they dun understand what their teacher taught them..never ever..

i was too fortunate..i guess..so fortunate that i ended up losing everything i could have got..if i had not done that well in my primary school i might be able to noe what they are facin and perhaps i could help them..and explain better to them..think i am not fit to be a tutor..

but i need tuition lobang..haha..if not,i wil have no pocket money..:( and anyway,i also need to go look for sales jobs..i must make myself realised that studying is much better than workin..haha..then i will work hard for my degree..

if not..i will be wasting money as well as my time..

to everyone reading this..kambatte ne..and no regrets..