scolded by mum..

i was too addicted to gunbound le..the moment i opened my eyes,the computer was on...until the moment i stepped out of house to work..and the second i reached home from work,my computer was on..hai~~til the moment i fall asleep..and i have started to sleep later..

she blames it on me having the broadband..and i suppose it should be one of the main reason why i am addicted to gunbound..without broadband,i would take like dunnoe how many hours to download and load the game,much more to play..without broadband,i would have more carefully used my time..haha..but anyway,no matter what,she will find excuses to scold me..and i am used to it..i have never done anything within her expectations..there are always people for her to compare with me..from kindergarten until now..yeah~kindergarten..

kindergarten:shinleei and i were choosen and one of us will be giving a speech..and yesh,you guessed it,shinleei was choosen to give the speech..i was relieved..but she was not reallie happy about it,even though the teacher gave me a chance to step on the stage to receive certificate on behalf of my classmates..

primary 4:i did badly for my chinese and english,and thus the teacher asked me not to opt for a higher mother tongue..and yeah~she started comparing..i was supposed to be in the best class then and she wanted me to remain in the best class..stressed..again,the teacher said that i would be able to remain in the best class even though i couldn't take up higher mother tongue..strange..weird..i dunnoe y..and i still wonders about the stupid class system..
primary 6:got around 240+ for my PSLE..she was disappointed..i noe it..she expected me to do as well as my best friend..how could i?she was always the top(she got ard 260+)..anyway,she just said that i was not hardworking enough..as always..if i got 250+,she would just said that i could have done better..mothers..

secondary 2:yeah~again i did pretty badly in my streaming,like always,since when i have done well(in her eyes) i was posted to a class not taking pure sciences..but so what?it's not the end of world to me..i guess..
secondary 4:got around 17 points for my prelims,posted to TPJC..and yup,she compared again..damn frustrating..and the same old reason out:i am not hardworking enough..wadever..i was glad i could be posted to a JC for the 1st 3 months..and the O-Level..she expected me to improve a lot..but i only improved like 2 points?i was satisfied enough to ba able to stay in a JC..and that i didn't deprove(was there such a word?)..and yeah,you guys must have guessed it..started comparing..sian..darnit..wadever i did was no good..of course there are always people who did much better than me..

JC:did very badly..this i knew..haha..and yet i didn't choose engineering(the common dumpin grd) in fact i was rather confident that i could get in science(my seniors said i could..but apparently there are loads of people who are interested in this ccourse this year..so wadever..)damn the stupid new system..it's so irritating and i am so damn suay..yah,she of course won't lose the chance to nag at me,comparing with people who had done fabulously well..hai~~

but nevertheless,i am glad that she gave me a chance to study in the private uni..who noes?maybe i will be able to do fabulously well?maybe i could excel then?maybe NUS and NTU would have regretted not taking me in..haha..maybe..and all these maybes could become a reality if i stopped being so addicted to the internet..haha

HELP!

SAVE ME~!