just sent a huge load of questions to SIM..still couldn't decide whether to do part-time or full-time..it will be tough if i do part-time?will i be determined to complete the course?will i be able to catch up?as many others are professional etc..would i be able to know what the lecturers are teaching?what is the style goin be like?similiar to debate-style?or just tutorial in most JC style?i am confused..very confused..how am i goin to face this load of problems?so many questions so little answers..i am very lost..

at the same time i am facin this problem,my other friend(i shall not reveal who) is facin another problem with herself..why do we have this fate?why can't w just happily look forward to a university life with a smile on our face,ending up in the same campus?with maybe boyfriends or what?why is everything not as what we have long wished for?

facing people avoiding me..dunnoe why i have that thought but anyway,i dun care..no mood and no time to care..i am busy enough with deciding wad course and wad time to take..much more to care about a person who is trying to avoid me..i've changed..i used to be a person who cares about everything my friends feel,now i dun..i am becoming less sensitive..haiz..that's bad huh?

i starting to hate myself..why am i the way i am?why can't i be like her?i felt jealous..why do i have to undergo this turmoil?is it to make me a better person?a stronger one as well?

i wonder..