well done..great..my worst fear has come..i was not admitted to SMU..all my plans of goin to a private university could be put into actions le..haha..yesh,i am getting ready to study in private university..or will try to reapply in NTU for engineering..at least that was the only place that accept people of my grades ba..maybe not..they have enough people already anyway..

yesh,u may say that i am negative,i am pessimistic..but i think it is the environment that makes me feel this way..and now,having faced this difficulty,i felt that i have matured..grow up..at least i feel that i benefited..even though it is a tiny bit..

i am confused..i knew this would happened and i just let it happened..why should i?why am i so dumb?i wish i would go and bang the wall,get into a coma..and never to wake up again..why didn't i prepare myself earlier?i was so devastated...i knew this would happen and yet...hai..just couldn't help feeling sad..bloody hell..why am i crying?for something that i deserved..