can't sleep well lately..slept very late yesterday..at around 1.30am..i think even peisi was shocked that i was online that late..me too..i was reallie surprised as well..hahaz..thought perhaps it was because of the guess show..but in the end didn't reallie watched..hahaz...just wasted my time..doin nothing..

had a nightmare..i dreamt of someone who had confessed his love to me and whom i have not replied to to be with another girl..i felt jealous and that person should have been me..if i agreed..i am sad..just like when i saw benedict with his girlfriend on the day we had done our flag day 2 years ago..reallie..i dunnoe how to describe the feeling but i just can't let it go if it reallie happens in real life..would you have reacted similiarly as me??

been thinking about him lately..dunnoe why..at stardust,thought i meet him,but it was only someone like him..been imaginin too much lately..dunnoe why,deleted the messages he had sent to me..no regrets..but hai..i reallie dunnoe what's between me and him?who am i to him anyway?friends?good friends?acquaintance?i dunnoe..i am confused..reallie confused..and i dun bother to think anymore..

loads of things to be done..but too little time,i am supposed to plan games for the children..ageing from primary 1-6 and maybe even one or two secondary 1 students..water games?charades?running?what else?couldn't think of more..i am brain dead now..reallie think a lot lately..

facing problem with stein,think he's angry for me punishing him..i have to otherwise,people will say that i am not being fair..haiz..there is nothing i can do about it,i guess..at most i lose a good pal to listen to all my woes and problems..lose a pal who would give me advices and sometimes sweet surprises..i hate it..but i couldn't do anything to stop it..i feel so useless..can't even salvage a broken friendship..guess the wrost thing is that people,even one of the POs(programme officers) joined the both of us together,as if we were an item..we are not..and i think it is awkward..for the both of us..reallie awkward..hope everything will be ok tomorrow..hope so hope so..(been saying these pretty often nowadays..)but i reallie do,sincerely hope that everything will be fine tomorrow..reallie..*pray hard*