tired..

i am reallie very tired nowadays..very easily get tired..am i getting older?or am i just bored with the life i am leading now??haiz..just had lunch with waiyue lena and guirong..haha..haiz..been spending a lot lately,more than what i have earned..hahaz...wanna save to buy a flip-open camera with camera and maybe a discman..hahaz..

tml audition for the stardust..dunnoe if i should join or not..haha..seems like there's gonna be very tough competition...

been having some sort of problems lately,with myself..and my job..seems like i have not reallie use my authority right on the children..they are not scared of me..maybe because i was just like their sister and in a sense not like their parents that age..maybe that's why..and i think i also treat them like my bros and sis..perhaps that's why..i am more of a friend to them than a teacher (programme officer,as they call it at the centre)

talked to the supervisor..she was wondering what i lacked that the children are not afraid of me..hahaz..i think the age factor affects a lot ba..and maybe also my inability in handling the children..i am not fierce enough..what else?and i cliqued more with them??!!hahaz..they will tell me their secrets,etc..hehe..who they admire etc..hehe..and also they complain to me about some of the stuff they dun like..i just listen lo..can't expect me to make any comments right?

haiz..maybe i should keep a distance from them le ba..haiz..tough decision...